my dear lovely followers, i feel terrible that i have not been around these past couple of weeks. some very serious life stuff has kind of shaken up my world so i have been taking some time to work through everything. but i will be back and posting regularly again, god willing, by the end of the week. thank you for being so patient and waiting around for me to come back. it meanps a lot. p.s. i am also terrible sorry for how crappy this note is. i am doing it on my phone and i guess my phone does not believe in capatilizing anything or letting me use certain punctuation.